Well, it has been a day. The tides of life are flowing strongly. I am still too close to the events to write about them in detail here, in fact, many of the details are still actively swirling around in my mind. My monkey-mind is reaching out there and grasping at various things that are flowing by and I am in a constant struggle of trying to not let it fasten on things. Additionally, I have always respected the privacy of other people, so I am sticking to that, even though half of the story is mine. It was an emotional morning and those emotions rose and fell through the day. This evening was melancholy, so I picked up my guitar and wrote for a while. I have set that aside for now to let it age a bit, but I do have to say I was happy with the outcome.
It is strange to me, but I think all of the reading I have done in the last year in Zen has influenced me. I am - not grasping. When I feel my hands grasping I take a deep breath and I relax them. It helps. I try to be as open and honest as I can in this world, and as tough as this time has been for me emotionally, there is no guilt associated with it. It is an emotionally tough time, in which I am an active participant, but they are the emotions that arise from being attached. Buddha himself left a wife and child to seek enlightenment (which is always a weird thing to think about, in my book). I haven't left a wife and child, so it is just something to think about.
I had breakfast with Bob, then wandered a bit, through Fry's and Home Depot, then I came home and took a nap. After the nap,Tyrone and I drove up to the Texas Roadhouse for dinner. Here, in the evening, as mentioned, I spent some time playing and writing, and then watched a pair of Fringe episodes. I may watch an episode of Haven next, since it is a little too early to go to bed, and, I am fairly certain, that once I crawl into bed the monkey-mind is going to run berserk for a while before it lets me fall asleep.
Oh, that reminds me, I finished reading William Gibson's "Zero History". I would highly recommend it, it was thoroughly enjoyable. I am not sure what I am going to start reading next, but I have some other books in line.
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