It looks like I have, temporarily, fallen on a different rhythm, a more work driven rhythm. I got home last night and basically went into vegetable mode, due to the hours I’d worked. I went to sleep early, about 8:00 PM. As a result of that decision, I woke up about 2:00 AM, spent thirty minutes or so reading, and then managed to go back to sleep until about 5:30 AM. When I woke at 5:30 AM I was rested and ready to move smoothly into the day.
I had an interesting dreams - it was a work related stress dream, where I was struggling with various aspects of the project that I’m working on. My biggest worry bead is this: We’re currently “working without a net” on various portions of the project, were working without anyone checking our work, we’re working without an process of peer review and without many of the necessary project controls. As a result, I have a persistent fear, not so much that I am making a mistake, but that I am missing something entirely - and I simply don’t know I am missing it. The same holds true of mistakes - I am well aware that I could be making some terrible mistake and simply be totally unaware of it.
That was the anxiety trigger that tossed and turned my dreams last night, but in the dream was the possible solution. That is one of the things I love about the way the subconscious works, the way it is continually seeking an answer, and then when it finds something it thinks will work present it to use in the form of images.
In the dream I was preparing to go on a raid of some sort. It was somewhere in the dark hours of the night, I was in a room lit by a lantern, and I had all my equipment laid out on the floor, meticulously counting each piece, ordering everything, making sure all of the basics were accounted for prior to the raid. I woke up with the realization that was the approach I needed - a simple and disciplined focus on the basics.
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